Monday, July 31, 2006
new york state of mind.
I'm just taking a Greyhound on the Hudson River line.
Cause I'm in a, I'm in a New York state of mind
New York State Of Mind - Billy Joel
i think if you truly want to be alone, then new york is the place. today i sat on the front steps of the cooper engineering building, and looked out across astor place. watched people walk by, buses, cabs, and cars drive by. people were talking and i had just finished reading kartography. i was so comfortably thinking of two things at once. and i was able to keep track of it all. there was no quiet, it's impossible to find silence here.
forget the bright city lights, the yellow cabs, the resturants and roadside cafes. this city never sleeps, because it's sad. alone and sad, looking for hope. you can walk hand in hand and still not feel any warmth, you're too busy being rushed, by the people behind you, infront of you and around you. too many signals to keep track of. i see people talk, they wear their nice clothes, but i know they're tired. they have to be, as much as i love this place i know i'm so sick of it.
it was today i thought of so many things, that i would like to say sometime. or perhaps wish i could forget soon, and look back on them and say that they never meant a thing, for the future will have erased any possibility of them. when does the future end? oh wait, it doesn't.
log bikhar jaatey hain, koi nahee'n samaitnay nahee'n aata. aur hum soochtay reh jaatay hain bohat si baatein. wohi baatein le kar hum apni eik choti si duniya bana laitay hain. and phir kehtay hain kabhi soocha tha kai yeh bhi din aaeyga, kai puri duniya haathon main hogi. magar humaray iss duniya main koyi reh nahee'n pata, yeh choti si duniya akayli hai aur humaray haathon main hi pyari lagti hai. aur jab woh duniya khatam ho jaati hai, toh phir tum apnay kadam le kar kahee'n aur chalay jaatay ho.
i sit on these steps and slowly my effortless smile goes away and things get quiet. i get up and take the elevator to the third floor to get to class, where i don't pay attention and think about things that are foolish.
i live in new york, things are done and thought of differently here. or maybe i do it all so differently. i can see the empty spaces being created. i am watching every inch of it's formation and there is nothing i can do to stop it.
i'm so good at writing senseless crap.
4 Comments:
TIDDY I WAS EATING A MARBLE LOAF AND DRINKING A TANGERINE FRAPPUCINO FROM STARBUCKS AT THE TIME. dunkin donuts is too fatening :P and and and my granny is still jet lagged. and my choti si duniya is cool okay. cool and gay.
tukray.
i think that's the perfect word for my insides right now.
pata nahi tumhe new york kyun nahi pasand.
mano: bohat pasand hai mujhay, paranoia is just my bestfriend.
tiddy: yes i have gas. khush? HAHAHHAHAHA
Loved your NY analysis. Bohat dil ko laga. And I too finished Kartography round about the same time, liked it!
