Sunday, December 31, 2006
2007
here we are yet again, at a crossroad. no one can go back, we all must move forward. none of us have a choice and if given so, we'd still drag our feet in the direction where the crowd is going. no one wants to get trampled to death, everyone just wants to get this all over with. this year has gone by fast. i don't know why and i don't know how. perhaps in being pre-occupied with 'the things to do today' i fell into a holding pattern and lost sense and awareness of ever having the option of 'not having to do anything'.
this year people were found, friendships were solidified, people came and people left and i stayed here. here in my space, in this city where i can only tell how it is and no one can actually know how it is, it's all a biased view. freshmen year, made a couple of good friends, that sums up the semester - heh.
i walked my longest walks this year. with good music and voices in my head, i walked and thought alot for no reason. i have defined each memory with a certain lyric, a certain rise in music and a certain tone of voice. this year i have had roller coaster days, unlike before.
in 2 hours it'll be a new year. the clock will strike 12 and it will rain confetti. champagne bottles will rain happiness, cameras will flash every microsecond, strangers will hug and kiss each other. and the next morning sad souls will clean the streets and collect all the colorful confetti full of happiness and decorate their bedroom walls. color will save them, and no one will know who died and why. colors will lie for people, and in doing so mysteries will remain and then be forgotten.
pictures taken on this night will be stored, archived and those of us who missed all the celebrations will wish to have been there. to have screamed and lost our voices in the outburst of such happiness, such eagerness to the end of year moving on to a new begining - it's just another number. it's just in our heads. time is stale.
all of you right where you are, from right where i am - we will just rely on static, and other mediums devoid of emotion. in the end i'll just pray for more strength, because it's never enough. i'll just pray that time goes by quickly.
in the end i'll just pray that this really does last.happy new year everyone, be good
:)
2 Comments:
loserface, stop being such a pessimistic aunty. i know you're bursting with happiness.
:P
i love you too anonymous. we shall meet soon and you shall see me bursting with happiness :D
